I kind of went insane for a while, I'll spare you all of the details, but it was perhaps as terrifying as what a bad LSD trip must be like. I was actually "batshit" crazy, really paranoid, impulsive, and nutty. My behavior is normally eccentric but that one week I went off the deep end. The good news is: I am fine now. My friends and family helped me get out, and better yet, move on.

Anyway, after getting sent to an ER after running away from therapy, getting tranquilizing shots on my butt, and staying at a mental hospital for about 8 days, I wonder if that experience kind of led to a re-writing of my brain's software. I was deprived of "mother and father" figures, stuck in a totally new environment, and I remember leaving the hospital, on a beautiful sunny day, opened up more doors inside than LSD or mescaline ever did. Now I feel extremely spiritual and that I've been given a second chance. I've also been having a lot more motivation/ambition lately, too, which is always nice.

I remember RAW spoke of many holy people/spiritual gurus/mystics going through similar experiences of "darkness" before entering periods of "lightness." I'm curious if anybody here went through something similar or have any words of wisdom to give me. RAWs books helped me a lot, especially Prometheus Rising, but I feel like I was almost "supposed" to go insane just because it helped me discover my place in the world and give me an entirely new perspective.